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The favourite child

I have no siblings,
And yet,
I am not the favourite child.
My sexual orientation is wrong,
The way I see the world is defective,
“What is this unconditional love you’re professing?”
I grew up in a small town,
In an even smaller country,
Where everyone is for themselves 
And fuck the rest!
I am not built that way,
This was clear after so many relatives
Tried to instil hate in me.
So now I am a nomad soul,
Searching high and low
For a place to belong.
I do have a secret, though - 
I feel like home everywhere on this Earth,
Except back where I was born …
I will write one funny story 
That will tell you everything you need to know about my family.
I was living in Portugal at that time,
My mother and grandmother decided to visit me.
The first interaction was at the airport,
At Starbucks.
You see, they give a coupon for a free drink
For every pack of beans you get.
I never get a drink there,
So I always try to pay it forward and
Give the little thing to someone behind me in line.
I forgot who I kept for company,
So I did what I always do:
Scan the queue for … I don’t know what,
But I always know it when I see it in their eyes.
I approach the chosen person and ask if they want a free drink.
As usual, they accept, smiling.
Who wasn’t smiling, was, however,
My grandma.
She was flabbergasted,
And asked me meanly what I did that for.
I explained my ritual,
But all she could think of was my loss.
I did not see it the same way,
I actually believe that I gained more.
I adore helping people, in every small way I can;
She tried to make me feel ashamed,
She tried her best to guilt me into not doing it ever again.
So I ended up helping homeless people instead!
Thank you for you advices,
I am better off on my own.

Defend to the end, the worthwhile

Stay tall, stand your ground.
Fight for what you know in your heart to be true.
What else is there worth fighting for than love?
Help the helpless,
Face your fears;
Of course they’re present, dear,
When you care so much.
See through the lies that terror spins,
Walk through the flames, you can win.
Follow your heart,
Follow with love
And a fierce compassion.
You have cried tears of grief
For your own pain and for the world’s.
You have yelled out at injustices
Towards yourself and this realm.
Honor love, even in the smallest steps.
Don’t let darkness get a hold of you,
Don’t let it fool you.
‘Just this once’, ‘you are only one person’,
With its snake-like eyes and sly smile
Will try to rot you from the inside out.
Don’t give in, my darling,
Don’t let it eat at you.
Follow the love, the truth, the light.
Be the love, the truth, the light.

Metaphors

Anxiety snakes her cold way into my soul, coiling in disgust inside my stomach.
Happiness radiates its warm light all over my body, splashing love all around.
Fear explodes its sharp venom into my bloodstream, paralysing me in its encompassing grip.
Safety feels like a cloud blanket over me on a sunny afternoon, spreading her flowing grace through a still embrace.
I feel deeply, and I am grateful
For the moments of bliss
I am able to experience.

Be still

Stay with your breath,
With the sounds,
With this second.
Have you ever noticed
How you are just the space
Where everything appears?
How you can’t hold on to a sound
For more than it is?
How you can’t hold on to the anger for more than a few seconds
Unless we actively feed it with more thoughts?
Consciousness is tricky, but it’s simple.
It is the only thing there is
And its language is Love.
Find the tranquility within you.
There will always be storms,
But how you react will feed the severity of them.
There will always be triggers,
But shining a light on them will allow you to work on a deeper level of healing.
Accept them and find their roots.
Be the hope in this world.

Our obligation

Let’s all ensemble in a meditation,
We are all one nation.
The frustration will disappear on location,
Let’s all love each other even after cremation.
I want to give an ovation
To all the people who embraced acceptation,
It is my own aspiration.
Here comes the complication:
We are all a constellation,
And we all know there is no dark without the confrontation 
Of your shadow self, you need to have a conversation,
It is all a contemplation.
You need to ask the hard question
“What am I ashamed of?” and work with dedication
To accept, heal and integrate all parts, this is not a denigration.
It will feel like devastation,
Or maybe even a deviation.
After all the excavation
You will find, with exaltation,
With no explanation,
But lots of fascination,
That we are all one, you were just in hibernation.
Wake up to the senses, it’s over - the incubation!
Go into the world, take an inhalation,
And be a witness to how love can become an inspiration,
Even an infestation - this is my inspiration.
‘Love each other’ should be a legislation,
Let’s make it happen, it is our obligation.

To my inner child

We made it, baby girl.
After all those terrifying nights,
We now sleep in the safest arms.
After all those unsure days,
Now you have a steady job that allows you 
To travel the world - your dream, remember?
After being locked for so many times,
Now you have the freedom that comes with a soulmate.
After being so hard on yourself for so very long,
Now you sail the self-love sea.
After all those violations,
Now you have well set boundaries.
You lost your mother in the process,
When I finally saw all the harm she did to you.
She was just … less than the molestation,
It took a while to recognise her form of abuse.
I apologise for the hell you went through,
No soul deserves such heart wrenching treatment.
We are safe. We are happy. We are loved.
We are far away from all that harm.
We made it!

Worlds within worlds

It is admirable that
You want to take into consideration
The opinions of others.
Just be careful 
Not to confuse them as your own.
It is beautiful that
You want to take other people’s
Pain away.
Just remember 
To not carry it with you afterwards.
You encompass worlds.
All your cells
That have their own rules
And wars.
You don’t believe me yet
That you are a miracle?
How about
The fact that…
The stardust in planets
Is the same as You?
Oh, you knew that and still don’t see;
How about your lover’s smile
When they set eyes on you?
Or the hope in the homeless’ mind
When you just give them your time, free of judgment?
Don’t remember them? Maybe it’s time for a refresher.
Go help someone when you’re down,
With the expectations lowered.
I found this to be one way of getting out of the darkness.

Larger than life

How does the world taste?
Like a tomato paste,
Or more like toxic industrial waste?
How does the universe feel?
Is it more like an automobile,
With its life as the cogwheel?
When your eyes are veiled
And it seems like everything has failed,
Please don’t be derailed.
Dare to see the truth
Outside of the voting booth.
Scream like fire,
We are one desire.
We are one life,
Never start a strife.
Love everyone higher,
Last we need is barbed wire.
Let’s be an amplifier, magnifier and purifier!
Even a rectifier …

Forgive yourself

Forgive yourself so you can love yourself.
Forgive yourself for all the times you acted out of fear,
For all the times you held on for dear life.
Forgive yourself so you can heal,
Forgive yourself so you can peel
All the layers away
And be completely naked and proud.
Of all your scars, of all your battles;
Can’t you see, dear, that they make you even more you?
They’re part of who you were and who you’ve been,
And all the ways you’ve overcome and beat them.
It’s part of the glorious you,
Of the beautiful you,
Of the kind you.
You are such a marvellous being,
The sun is pale in comparison.
My beauty, see yourself
Without those hate-filled goggles
That are aimed at yourself.
You are a queen, a warrior, a goddess.
A human being with a god’s soul.
A warm rain after a stifling day.
A safe place. A beautiful life. A warm smile. The look in your eyes. The light on your face when you laugh. YOU.

Try

Heaven and Hell under the weight of the Earth.

All that is filled with hate, what is it worth?

I try to be good, but then I remember

Good and bad are relative, and I’m no better.

I truly don’t believe that anyone is beyond redemption

But they have to do the work for their ascension.

Eye for an eye and hate for the hateful

Will only leave us blind and unfaithful.

I understand it is hard to love some souls,

But if to change the world is one of your goals

Then they need to be shown that there’s another way –

Of living, of being, of loving; wait, don’t go away!

Let me plead one more time

For all the people that stay in line

Love is revolutionary, give it a try!